recovering chick
11:20 a.m. - 03.27.03
my friend laura is in town. she plays clarinet and is getting her phd in musicology. we are meeting later for drinks, then going to the tea house for the peace project night. i might read tonight as well.
my friend dave might be there -- the guy i hung out with last saturday night. he hasn't called, which is fine - i like it that way. he is in the circle of friends i hang out with, i will eventually see him again; then, i might even get a clearer idea if he is interested, or if i am.
as i said in another entry, i used to be a little more impatient and take it personally if they didn't call right away. if they did call, i immediately went out with them and started dating him almost instantly. i'd sleep with them after the first or second date, especially if they said i was pretty. then, the 'relationship,' which i was so sure i was in, would crumble in a few months because i never knew the guy. or, he was controlling, or he just didn't share my same interests. then i's wonder how i got myself in another funky situation.
it's kind of hard to write this down. i am a smart woman. i have always thought that i have always played things cool. thank goodness for hindsight, at least. yet, i have been infected with 'the psycho chick' syndrome before.
i'm trying to vaccinate myself.
recovering chick - 03.27.03
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