the maybe date
1:18 p.m. - 04.26.03
i don't know if i'm going fishing today yet.
my date called me on tuesday and we had a nice 30 minute conversation. he had said tenetavely we would leave today at 2 p.m.
he called me again last night (it was a nice surprise) and we talked for about 30 minutes again. we started getting into a conversation about depression, and how artists deal with depression through their work. it was interesting. he says his mom is suffering from depression and he had a depressive episode a few years ago after he broke off an engagement with a girl who was schzophrenic. he was on medication for a little while. i told him i just wasn't recovering from depression, but bipolar. he said that i seem so 'normal' and i have such a positive view on things, and that i am always so friendly and social, he finds it hard to believe that i have this illness, and thinks it's great that i cope so well with it. that seemed pretty cool.
since he called as i was watching a movie with grandma, i asked if i could call him back. he agreed. i called him back at 10 and i left a message 'i'll be up for a little while in case you want to talk again. if not, i'm looking forward to tomorrow.
it's 1:30 now, and i still haven't heard anything. i was just on the phone for the last 45 minutes, so maybe he did try to call ...
i won't be really mad or really dissappointed if we don't do anything today. i see him all the time when the group is together, so it's not like we will never talk again. but, danielle just got back from san francisco (that's who i was on the phone with) and she wants to hang out tonight.
hmmm - should i call him and see what's up? would that be too pushy? should i just go along with my danielle plans? ohhh, i dunno. why does this dating stuff have to be so complicated???
the maybe date - 04.26.03
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